the engine

a year, number: twenty twelve

1 numbness, loneliness, sickness, helplessness, mental disorder. 2 a try, the creative spark, everything is temporary. 3 a visit, a town, a breakdown, help, the safe place. 4 the hello, a help, being found, finding, another try, the wait. 5 continuity, the safe haven, going up the hill, a city. 6 by my side, a breakdown, help, sleep deprivation. 7 you, joy, the safe person, finding, my summer. 8 you, tiny worries, the safe person, strength, apathy, a promise. 9 continuity, commitment, a suburb, a hotel, longing, fear, a collapse. 10 a twin advance, understanding, continuity, an explosion, loss. 11 longing, commitment, autopilot, a fence, hurt, missing, absence. 12 a reaction, commitment, understanding, fear, a retrospect, my promises, the wait.

fear not your fears

everybody needs an engine

you need an engine, that's true

and you're somebody else's engine, too

(The British Expeditionary Force - The Engine)